Wow! Have I ever been busy. First we went to Las Vegas, then we were home a couple of days in which I had another Herceptin treatment and then we went to Orlando (I'm actually still in Orlando and am writing this on Scott's computer at his college).
So, Vegas. It was great. We stayed at the Mandalay Bay Hotel. It's a beautiful hotel. When we checked in they gave us a room on the third floor that overlooked a cement wall. I called down and told them that although the room is lovely I really would like a better view so they moved us to the 23rd floor with a great view of the strip. On Saturday we must have walked 5 - 8 miles. For anyone who knows Vegas we walked all the way from the Mandalay, through Luxor, through Excaliber, through New York New York and all the way down to Caesar's Palace. We just meandered all the way down and saw the Water Show at Bellagio, too. The rest of the time we ate and drank way too much. Saw Wayne Brady, who was just ok. Did a little betting and broke even. It was fun.
Then, we came home on Wednesday night on the redeye. I hate flying and flying on a redeye in coach is just not pleasant. At least we had exit row seating but still, I just don't sleep well on planes. Andrew? Out like a fricking light as soon as the plane takes off. I guess, because he travels so much, that his body is just used to doing that. I know that when he flies to Europe he flies over night and then goes into the office the next morning. Sometimes straight from the airport, I think. Anyway, he just goes right to sleep and I sat there watching his head bob for a while and got mad at him for being able to sleep and then watched some tv and then finally got to sleep just in time to wake up for our changeover in Atlanta. Ugh. Needless to say I slept most of Thursday.
Then, as I said, I went for my Herceptin on Friday morning. I met a lady there who is 4 months post-chemo. She has hair and it's so soft (yes, I asked to touch it and she was happy to oblige). We talked about chemo and being done with it and trying to live life without fear. It was very good to talk to her. I may put on a really brave face but inside I'm just terrified that the cancer will come back. I have pains in my hips and I'm just sure it must be bone cancer. Pains in my back? I think I must have kidney cancer or even bone cancer in my back. It's really because I've been sleeping on unfamiliar beds that are too soft but these things really do go through my mind and enter my head and then I have nightmares about it all. That? I'm just trying not to do it anymore. Easier said then done but I'm trying.
On to happier things.....My nephew, Thomas, came to Florida to play lacrosse on Saturday. My parents and Andrew and I and the boys and Jeff's girlfriend, Chanel all went to see him play in Orlando. He's a freshman so we weren't thinking he'd get any playing time but he did. He's very good, if I do say so myself!! Must get that from the Irvine side!! teehee!!! We only got to say hi for a moment and he was off with his team but it was nice to hug him and see his cute little face.
Then, mom and dad headed back home and we stayed in Orlando. Six of us in a hotel room!! It went fine, actually. Sunday we just played at the pool and it was so relaxing. Jeff and Chanel and Scott went back to their schools on Sunday night. Kevin, Andrew and I stayed at the hotel one more night and today we're at Scott's school talking to the ROTC people about what they may have to offer the boys next year. Kevin wants to come to UCF with Scott and both have shown interest in the ROTC program so we want to chat with them and see what it's all about.
That's all our "goings on" for now. I must add that I do have some hair sprouting up. As soon as I think it'll show up in a picture, I'll post one so you can all see. I'm very excited about the prospect of having hair. My eyelashes and eyebrows are still missing. Leg hair and arm pit hair coming back, unfortunately.
I start radiation tomorrow. I'm nervous about it. I'll post how that goes.
TTFN!
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So glad you got a little break in there, before going back to "dragon slaying"! Thanks again for going en masse to see Tom play, he was so happy to see all of you, and loved the moral support in his first-ever college game. Wish I could have been there too. Tom told me you looked great, and that you're "growing hair"! (I quote.)
Off to your first radiation tomorrow? Hope it goes well, I'm sure it will. I sympathize with your fears that the cancer is going to "win" - after Randy's heart attack, I kept thinking that every little symptom he had was another one. (I expected him to be like Redd Foxx in that old TV series "Sanford and Son", where he would grab his chest and shout "I'm coming, Lord, I'm coming!") It got better with time, and I had to do a lot of stern self-talk, of the "oh for Pete's sake, get a hold of yourself" variety - limited success with that. Better success with just reassuring ourselves that he is doing everything he can to control the variables, and gave up the rest to the universe..... Just as you are doing everything you can to fight this shitty cancer. Trust that the docs know what they're doing, sweetie. Break out that little tiara, sing something funky ("Rapper's Delight" comes to mind, or "We are Family"), dance like a loony woman, and celebrate that you're alive and kicking!
Still sending that good healing energy your way every day. Sorry I haven't done better with the cards lately, I'll get back in the groove. Feb. is a crappy month for me, so gloomy and damp/cold up here - but since we turned the clocks back, I'll perk up now. Love to everybody, and I miss you. Kim xoxo
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